Change Is The Only Constant in Recovery
Tuesday, December 29th, 2009Submitted by TheDotMack on December 29, 2009
With the new year coming up, one of the first things I think of are New Year’s resolutions. After years of failed attempts at living up to my own expectations of myself, I choose not to pronounce “resolutions”. A lot of times in my life a “resolution” was all talk. Something to do tomorrow, not today. Not right now.
I am a serial procrastinator - MrClean and RT can attest to this, in fact I’ve procrastinated getting this article done until much later than I should have. If I say I’m going to do something starting the New Year, I can pretty much guarantee that its not going to get done. I am slowly but surely gaining this awareness of myself.
The only time anything will ever get done for me is right now. I propose we take a look at New Year’s “resolutions” with a new perspective — to set goals for myself and map out the steps I need to take to achieve those goals. Then all I need to do is take that next step, keeping it so simple even a person in recovery can do it (You know you like that witty Geico caveman reference).
In 2009, I’ve slowly gained the freedom from overeating and smoking, and I mean SLOWLY. It has been a process, and it’s still difficult for me on a daily basis - however I see results now and it feels good to have actual self esteem based on action rather than perceived self esteem based on ego.
In 2010, my goal is to continue my diet, my exercise, and my step work. I have to continue to grow so I don’t regress. That’s really the most difficult piece of the disease I have to swallow, that I’ll constantly have to work on myself so I don’t fall back. If I stay positive, and I stay in “today”, then I know that the next right move is the move that builds character, the move that makes me a good person, the move that makes me stronger for having overcome the seemingly insurmountable.
With Love,
TheDotMack








